I was left without breath as someone tried to explain to me what my presence and absence felt like to them and the people around them the other day.
Even now trying to put into words how I felt after hearing that my energy was felt through messages, emails, phone calls, my poetry and writing, and face-to-face contact is impossible.
I know that what they said will never leave me, not ever "She expressed to me after I asked how everyone in the group was that things just weren't the same without me anymore and I was "the glue" that held friendships, relationships, and families together.
People came together because of me and stayed together only when I was present and when I left it was felt and not too long after I left everyone goes their way" Something about what she said healed a part of my heart that had been broken for the longest time and I am not sure I'll ever be able to say thank you enough to her for saying this to me.
Most of the time people say thank you or that they appreciate me. Which I am thankful for but if you know me, you know that I am as deep as an ocean and I need that from the people I surround myself with too.
So, while I appreciate people thanking me what I need is to be touched far beyond what any plain word or words can say.
What she said was the level of depth my soul and heart needed to hear not because I am ungrateful for anything less but because it takes so much more for me to heal the parts of me that have been broken the longest.
Treasured Words...
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